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I don't know what to do. i guess i just need to do something to be distracted by something to not think about it to deny it whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhwywhywhywhy did california not get back to me? i dont know. i dont know idontknow

so i'm just going to update this. share with you the pointless little things i did in new zealand. all i want to do is tell my mom and show her the pictures that i was always too busy to post. but i cant. and my mothers day card arrived 3 days too late. so im going to do this.